Somewhere between the intersection of Sunday night and Monday dawn, I awoke on
the New England Patriot’s 1-yard line.
With my eyes closed, I rolled over and attempted to realign myself with my comforter
instead of the rough artificial grass.
Slowly I recalled the previous afternoon and how the game ended.
The game clock displayed side-by-side sets of zeros and it was over but in my
mind and apparently my dreams,
the outcome felt unresolved.
There’s nothing like a good book
but lately I can’t seem to
bring myself to start or finish a book.
There are books I couldn’t wait to hold in my hands
and several received as gifts still wearing shiny book jackets.
Over the last few years, I have attempted to read more fiction as my default has
always been non-fiction.
Now I look forward to escaping into the pages of a well-crafted story and perhaps
my mind hasn’t been willing to release the characters, the story line or
even the ending.
Maybe I can’t resolve the final pages to move onto fresh beginnings.
My journal is like a map of bullet points consisting of people
and things which concern me.
What’s not on the list?
Everything else in my head I don’t allow a pen and paper to document.
Whether written or unwritten, I am sure you have lists of your own.
There are a litany of areas in my life and maybe yours as well
which could be labeled unresolved.
I can’t help but think this is the appeal of making a resolution.
It is an opportunity to
dig in your heels,
state for the record,
draw a line in the sand,
declare right here and
right now your intention to resolve
“this thing” which thus far
has remained unresolved.
But when resolve feels
shaky and improbable,
one more item lands in
the pile of unmet resolutions.
So my mind is littered with a fair amount of clutter.
Some resolved, I just would rather a different end result.
Some unresolved and may never venture close to a finish line.
Still others I have absolutely no vote or control in their
This is probably why I dream of a small bits of football
real estate or different ending to books.
When I pray this is why my mouth lingers open
to drink in just enough air to chat with the Father about
In the past, I would try harder when the pieces of my
life weren’t lining up.
Today I need a gentler approach.
When the clutter of my life disrupts my sleep
and leisure life, structure steeped in kindness is necessary.
I want to keep or add practices to days
strewn with unresolved matters:
- Breathe deeply
- Get fresh air
- Sip on water and not so much tea
- Take a walk or even a stroll
- Continue to keep company with God
- Get plenty of rest and take naps on the weekend
- Eat like an adult 🙂
- Light candles not just at night
- Stretch (I am loving this 7 minute yoga app)
- Spend time with the people who live in and outside
my four walls and reach out to the wise ones
Could any of these ten practices help
you wade through the land of unresolved things?