flashes

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At the end of November, I began to see flashes of light.

The flashes only occur on my right side’s peripheral vision.

At first, the brightness of the light and the size of the flash was intense

and large enough to startle me.

There were times when I would shriek.

A bit embarrassing when no one else in the room sees anything out of the ordinary.

I wanted to believe I was seeing angels.:)

After all, angelic appearances have had a frightening effect on many.

After a couple of weeks, I sought the opinion of an opthamalogist.

I learned that these flashes are caused by a change or shift in the vitreous  of my eye.

It is the gel- like substance which fills the eyeball and attaches to part of the retina.

The retina’s job is to interpret light and only light.

If you have ever had a “floater” this is also a symptom as well.

I haven’t had any type of head injuries so this is simply a change.

I assumed the eye doctor would send me home with some eye drops.

She did not.

Carl wondered if there was a certain food I could eat to alleviate this.

There was not.

I wish all the maladies of this world could be alleviated with drops or a few choice bites of  food.

I was told the flashes would either cease or I would get used to them.

Although they are not as bright as they were in the beginning, they are more

frequent.

I am getting used to them.

I believe this is why I haven’t been writing much lately.

Screen time equals lots of flashes.

The word I chose for 2012 was fixed.

I wanted  to remain fixed to  God’s heart,

His call,

His ways and

His purposes.

The flashes I have been seeing have given me the most

vivid illustration.

The other day, I happened to re-read my after doctor visit

summary sheets.

They were difficult to read the day of the appointment as my

eyes had been dilated.

I was struck by this one line:

If floaters or flashes bother you, you can try to look up and then down to

move them out-of-the-way.

There is much in life that can be bothersome.

That might be an understatement.

Why not look to Him?

When something flashes before your eyes and bothers you,

raise your gaze from the things bound on this earth!

Get the Lord’s perspective.

Take on His character.

Grab some of His peace.

Gaze upon Him long enough to be immersed in His Spirit.

Then look back down to where you reside.

Either what is bothering you will go away.

Or God will allow you to get used to it.

I am not saying that what ails you will be fixed

but God will affix Himself to you in a way which

transcends sight.

Perhaps it is the most profound way to pray.

I see flashes when I sit, stand, move and when

I close my eyes at the end of the day.

Eyelids are thinner than imagined.

Looking up allows the light to hit all those thin places.

God has given me a visual reminder to remain fixed.

So I will remain fixed and I hope that never goes away.

Tomorrow, my word for 2013.

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2 thoughts on “flashes

  1. Oh Helen. First, sorry for your health issue with your eyes. God gave you a beautiful picture of how to remedy that is much broader than an eye issue, but a life application for me, too. Thanks for your word of the year-fixed–not as broken, fixed, but as steadfast, fixed. He is alive in you in beautiful ways.

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  2. ci says:

    I love when God graciously shows us Himself in the middle of our discomfort and brings His peace and perspective. What a gift. I needed to be reminded of that today. 🙂

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