Today is Courtney’s graduation day!
The picture above is in our dining room.
A banner of her school years and a couple before she entered school.
A collection showing how she has grown and changed.
How that adorable smile remained through the years.
I read this passage this morning:
Jesus said to his followers,
“So I tell you, don’t worry about the food you need to live, or about the clothes you need for your body.
Life is more than food, and the body is more than clothes.
Look at the birds.
They don’t plant or harvest, they don’t have storerooms or barns, but God feeds them.
And you are worth much more than birds.
You cannot add any time to your life by worrying about it.
If you cannot do even the little things, then why worry about the big things?
Consider how the lilies grow; they don’t work or make clothes for themselves.
But I tell you that even Solomon with his riches was not dressed as beautifully as one of these flowers.
God clothes the grass in the field, which is alive today but tomorrow is thrown into the fire.
So how much more will God clothe you?
Don’t have so little faith!
Don’t always think about what you will eat or what you will drink, and don’t keep worrying.
All the people in the world are trying to get these things, and your Father knows you need them.
But seek God’s kingdom, and all your other needs will be met as well.
Luke 12: 22-31
As I thought about the nearly 18 years of Courtney’s life…I wondered have I worried or prayed more?
I hope that I prayed more.
But I do know that I have had worries.
I have had sleepless nights wondering what direction or path she would take.
But as I looked through boxes and boxes of memories over the last few weeks, I assembled the pictures.
A garland of God’s faithfulness and steadfastness and intense goodness.
I also found a bulging folder of my 5 years of leading a Moms In Touch group.
I looked at page after page of member sheets.
Sheets that contained weekly verses that we prayed over our children.
I started to type them all out to Courtney but it is a project that will need to wait until summer.
That’s a good thing.
There have been many prayers and I know there are more verses that are strewn in my journals
and in the margins of my Bibles.
So I am guessing there have been more prayers and hopes and dreams for her.
I am sticking with that belief until God tells me something different 🙂
This is what I read in Jesus Calling…further good words:
I am all around you, like a cocoon of Light.
My Presence with you is a promise, independent of your awareness of Me.
Many things can block this awareness, but the major culprit is worry.
My children tend to accept worry as an inescapable fact of life.
However, worry is a form of unbelief; it is the anathema to Me.
Who is in charge of your life?
If it is you, then you have good reason to worry.
But if is I, then worry is both unnecessary and counterproductive.
When you start to feel anxious about something,
relinquish the situation to Me.
Back off a bit, redirecting your focus to Me.
I will either take care of the problem Myself or
show you how to handle it.
In this world you will have problems, but you need
not lose sight of Me.
Tonight, when I watch Courtney march in with her classmates,
take her seat, walk across the stage and receive her diploma…I will
smile with the deep abiding knowledge that for this girl I prayed and in
the bit of worrying that I did, God revealed Himself in the midst of it.
I will cheer as she moves her tassel to the other side and begins this next
road in her journey…one that I will be delighted to continue to pray
over, under and around and through her every step.