not bittersweet…

not bittersweet…

Yesterday my one and only brother got married.  He waited until he was 41…he waited for the right one.

Yesterday my grandmother went home to be with the Lord…she couldn’t wait until her 88th birthday…which is today…but she waited until it was the right time.

I could say that yesterday was bittersweet…but it was not.  To say that is to declare  that I have bitterness residing in heart and soul…I do not.

Yesterday was all about life.  God has been teaching me that life is intermingled with easy and hard…it’s just always going to be like that…we are children that live after the Fall.

Our lives are like a paper chain that links hard and easy together…agony and ectasy…ups and downs…joy and sorrow…springtime and harvest…comings and goings…finding home and going home.

God made it this way…He could have spared us from anything difficult but He didn’t…the only thing that never changes is Him.

At times like this, it is easy to say that in the days to come, I will realize more of what God has done during these short days…but I know already.  His faithfulness to us has been unparalleled and we have witnessed it.  Time will only reveal  more of the hand of the Maker.  There will be things that I will never know because they are hidden in heaven…and that’s alright…I can wait.

Yesterday was full of life…the great heights and lows…a great celebration with laughter and tears…a great celebration as Lelia was ushered into His Presence with laughter and tears.

Yesterday was life.

Ecclesiastes 3:11-14 (New International Version)

11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. 13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

Ecclesiastes 3:11-14 (The Message)

 9-13 But in the end, does it really make a difference what anyone does? I’ve had a good look at what God has given us to do—busywork, mostly. True, God made everything beautiful in itself and in its time—but he’s left us in the dark, so we can never know what God is up to, whether he’s coming or going. I’ve decided that there’s nothing better to do than go ahead and have a good time and get the most we can out of life. That’s it—eat, drink, and make the most of your job. It’s God’s gift.  14 I’ve also concluded that whatever God does, that’s the way it’s going to be, always. No addition, no subtraction. God’s done it and that’s it. That’s so we’ll quit asking questions and simply worship in holy fear. 

Yesterday…I simply wanted to worship the Lord…and today…I still do…just simple worship of an anything but simple God.

9 thoughts on “not bittersweet…

  1. Everything that God does will endure forever. What a great truth. hmm kinda puts into perspective the “stuff” i do. Jaye and Brian Albers spoke today at church and Jaye’s word was very much about the stuff getting in the way of pure worship of Him. The hard and the easy don’t change, it’s us that changes in the prescence of God’s pure love for us. So all we can say is we love you Lord and “we hide ourselves in the shelter of your wings, safe in the peace that your love brings, I will delight myself in you”. ( from a worship song by Pastor Matt Casey.


  2. Helen,
    What a beautiful post, full of God’s perspective and grace regarding our small allotment of time here on this earth. My prayers continue for you and your family and I know that Jesus will hold you tight during these transitions. So thankful that He knows all and IS all.


  3. Helen,

    It’s so beautiful. You are so gifted with words and faithfulness. I have seen you over the years walk through many challenges and victories. You have always spoke the truth in love, you have always encouraged others with the word and by your Godly character. I pray that the Lord bless you and the family during this time. God Bless.


  4. Dear dear Helen, Of course, I cried as i read your post….timing….In 1996 my Grandma Edna died in April, my nephew Logan was born in August, and Leif and I got married in October….endings and beginnings…but really, all beginnings….and I understand what you mean about “bittersweet”….but truly, God’s timing is poignant….to give you both kinds of “beginnings” on one day–deep speaks to deep….they waited….until just the right time…may you be blessed even more as you grieve and think of your dear grandma Lelia….knowing that on her birthday she is “birthed” into heaven…a new life, just begun…
    Love you and will be praying…Karen


  5. Dearest Helen,
    You told me that you hope that your readers will post their comments so here goes. I have been awake since 4 this morning working on things for our celebration of your grandmother and my mother and I knew that if I clicked into your blog, I would find your words. God has blessed you my dear one with a way of giving us the words to express our deepest thoughts. Thank you and I leave you as I start my day with thoughts from your Grandmother Lelia, “just leave it to God,” and from Granddad Gaskins, “It’s all life.”
    Love, Mor


  6. Helen, your words are so very wonderful. I know how proud your grandmother was of you, her first grandchild. Love, Uncle Don


  7. Helen, very comforting words. Gaining God’s perspective on the celebrations of life is always a great place to begin. With his perspective, our focus can be on the positives and his plans. Separating from loved ones is the hardest thing in life to deal with. I’m glad that we have a great God to sooth the pains that he knows only too well!


  8. “…so we will simply worship in fear.” Beginnings and eternal beginnings all in one day. You have mentioned before how dear your grandmother is to you. I can’t imagine choosing a day of greater joy in her heart to go and be with the Lord. (if we were choosing!) Or the fullness in your heart as your only brother marries. Seasons overlap. The days to come will be hard, yet your heart already knows such a beautiful story with Him to simply worship. I’m so sorry for your loss and know the pain is not diminished in the loss, but is somehow tended and loved on by the Savior. Your Savior. Her Savior. I love the way your heart pours out words! Love and and a big hug, Annette


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