Me in the wee hours of the night:
“I feel like You are this huge volume…bigger and more vast than I have ever seen or beheld…the pages are endless…to even try to hold You in my hands would be fruitless…my lap would not be able to contain You…how could I withstand Your weight?
Today Lord, I am one of those pages…today I fold down the corner of that page…to dog ear it so to speak…
Today I bow my knees before You and say…I want You…I want more of You…I am willing…I will follow You…I am not afraid of what it will cost and what is required…or what it will look like…I want You…wholly You…HOLY YOU…and because you are God and because You are Mighty and Vast…each one of us can bend down the corner of our given page…our lives…for there is room…oh so much room for us to fold our lives into the center of Who You Are…
David and Asaph say:
“O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.
I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.”
Psalm 63: 1-5
“Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My heart and my flesh may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you,
But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds.”
Psalm 73: 22-28
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