Lord, I Am Willing…

Lord, I Am Willing…

We have been struggling with Caleb’s extremely low frustration level.  He can be happily playing with his blocks one moment and the next instant we are bobbing and weaving to avoid projectile missiles launched in every direction.

This morning, after 3 meltdowns, time spent in the “naughty chair”, and a short term exile in his bedroom…Carl returned Caleb to the living room and Caleb said a soft, “Sorry, Mommy.”  This was followed by a hug which he made no attempt to end. 

My frustration with him melted away and was replaced with compassion and love.  I said a quick prayer over Caleb and he still was holding tightly to my body.  I began to quietly sing to Caleb.  After the third song, he sat up and looked at me.  I asked if he was done with the singing, he replied, “No! Sing more,” and promptly laid his head back on my shoulder.

The last song I sang was retrieved from the back recesses of my memories. I first heard this song when I was at church camp in the 7th grade.  My camp counselor would often have our cabin sing this refrain at the end of our evening chapel times.

I loved chapel and I loved this song.  The melody and the words just felt sacred and holy.  It was a plea of surrender to the Lord, the greatest Servant of all.

The Servant Song

Make me like You, Lord
Make me like You.

You are a Servant
Make me one too.

Lord I am willing
Do what You must do.

To make me like You Lord
Make me like You.

Caleb is ending (Lord, I pray) his “tumultuous two’s”.  As one of his authority figures, I must continually pray for the Lord to tell me what I must do to make him an obedient little boy, one who learns the value of submission.

At twelve and at camp, I know that I thought I knew what was demanded of a servant.  But 30 years later, the Servant Song rings in my heart , but I am all the more aware of how often I fall short  of real servant-hood.

  • Can I pick up cast off dirty socks and not feel like the maid in residence?

  • Do I say yes to a plea for help but complain when the cost is more than I anticipated giving?

  • Do I desire to pick and choose how I want to serve others?

  • Will I offer help to someone in need when I feel especially needy myself?

  • Do I turn the other cheek?

As I reflect on Christ’s life, it is a life that was exemplified by serving.  He healed when He was tired and it was inconvenient.  He desperately needed quiet and rest but reached out in compassion to those who needed a Savior.  He was lied about, rejected, betrayed and abandoned by those closest to Him. His parting words on the Cross further reveal that His mind was consumed with serving to the very end.  These words are found in Luke 23: 34,43 and 46:

  1. “Father, forgive them for they do not know what they are doing.”
  2. “I tell you the truth, today you will be in paradise.”
  3. “Father, into Your hands, I commit my spirit.”

Christ’s words show Him serving mankind and the Father by releasing, restoring, redeeming and relinquishing. 

  • Who do I need to release from my judgment today?
  • What words could I utter that would restore another? What relationship needs restoration?
  • What area in my life have I not fully relinquished to God?
  • Who is God telling me to serve today?

“…whoever wants to be great among you must be the servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all.  For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”
                       Mark 10: 43-45

Take a sweeping glance over your life.  Crawl up into the Father’s lap…don’t let go until He whispers a song in your ear and upon your heart.

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